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In office, waitin for lunch to come.. hungry n tired. still feel sickly.. haiz..

busy busy busy.. the entire office is very occupied. tml is the big dae.. lots of things to do, to prepare.. and the only comfort is... tml dun have to come back CAMP.. yeaH! perhaps u may find me in Suntec..

if u notice my links, u wld have see a new link being added.. it's meant to let ppl noe who are our ministers.. who are those who can make a impact(be it big or small).. it's for peeps who noe nuts about it.. try to noe them, nobody's asking u to memerise it..

Oh... headache, fever, sore throat.. so sick now.. beri tired..

privacy.. something tat i sincerely believe in .. practice all the time.. observe by totally.. but cant seem to understand y i've got a bunch of peeps who's opposite to me.. open up my letters.. digging my drawer and look at my "items of rememberance".. arghh...

think my attitude is one of its kind, not many can understand, not many can blend to my style of living, working. Blend, as in.. totally blend perfectlly.. wat to do?? i think tat i'm blending myself to others, at the same time all others are also thinking tat they are accomodating to all others.. den who's right n who's wrong.. who's having to "wei3 qu1" urself?? Human relations.... HAIZZZ

today.. quite pissed off.. quite blue too.. guess i loved the atmospehere at teaspa yesterdae.. so when the peeps at home raised their volume, i couldnt tolerate, n i raised the volume of my mini hi-fi. this aint a long term soln, so i went out.. me rite now @ a cybercafe in capitol.. was away from home since 2pm

tat's me.. attitude problem.. poor temper management.. poor at expressing myself.. i cant help but concur wif today's Sunday Times article about Males being the main peeps for crimes of passion.. it toked about males as having difficulty in expressing themselves, thus resorting to violence. This difficulty also made them seemingly insensitive to gals.. where in fact, most of them arent tat way.

bet it's true for lots of u..

was on guard duty last nite, so tired.. while msging a fren last nite, still kanna suan... telling me to enjoy guarding... haizz. anyway, thks jean, cos it seems quite fun though.. end up wif only less than 2 hrs of slp.. haha... still feel energetic now, only tat my head a little heavy now..

was toking to a reservist fellow during the tour of my duty, he's quite secretive.. at least i feel tat way. i asked him for his occupation, he jus merely said "stoner".. bleahz. wat kinda of answer is tat man. so dao! guess he doesnt wan to anyhow tell peeps about his job, although i noe tat he's a NTU lecturer. haha. later on he mentioned tat i'm different from the rest he met while on his current tour of duties. I'm more positive.. oh, wat is tat to mean?? din ask him further, cos i noe tat he will jus gif some more cryptic answers. just like me.. haha :P

dun worry, think i still have chance to tok to him, cos i still got gd duty this month wif him n tat grp..

haiz.. got to catch some slp.. going out tonite wif frens.. tataz

wtf man, been so long since i came online.. not really used to it.. but anyway, wat can i do? thinking of means to get hold of a laptop.. haha.. no money lar.. jus tok tok only..

think my expenses is getting a little out of control.. my mobile bill now stands at $50.. even though my classic plan is at $16.. shit.. n, every month, i'm getting advance allowance from my mum, which will be deducted from my subsequent month's allowance. $420 for a NSF, y is it not enuf leh? aint i suppose to save and buy a laptop, and maybe even use it for my uni studies? haiz.. kinda stress now.. but den, xin you yu er li bu zu.. just like many teens out there..

haiz.. dun expect me to cum online for sometime for the nites to cum.. cos kanna ban from pc liao..too many late nites, cant wakey in the morningz.. haiz.. dun miss me hor.. dun worry, cos my mobile is still ard.. heehee

after the long jog.. the end result.. i've now got the mentality tat i can run longer liao.. yea! com'on, i used to walk after 5 mins in the past.. heehee.. think if i can con't to run, i can get back to my old figure.. woooo!

n lastly, ouch! a BLISTER.. god damn it... a 1cm diameter blister... sianz.. shit.. now very reddy liao.. tink got blood clot.. haizz...

AN ACHEIVEMENT!!

moi ran for a total of slightly over 5km today.. whew! can believe it myself also. woke up at 4am, felt bored, so i flipped the street directory. den i tot maybe can slow jog to marina city park, the venue for my Camp Outing. almost lost my way though, cos i was on prince edward road towards ECP, haha. fortunately realised tat b4 i kanna caught by camera for being too slow so i turned back, took a small road.. n poof!! i'm at the park... tat's about 2.5+ km..nv in my life...

even more surprised, i jogged during my outing.. n tat's another 2.5km.. omg..thnk i starting to feel for jogging liao.. mus maintain maintain maintain maintain...

hi ya.. no more german today.. quite a bad dae for me though.. haizz.. tried to fa1 xie4.. so went to splurge $$.. bought 4 albums at one shot.. a little broke.. still have another 3 in mind..

this is how i release myself.. do any of u have other ideas tat wroks for ya?this mth also my 2 other frens' bdae.. whr shld we go to eat leh?? do u have any suggestion??

shit.. still got to buy bdae stuff.. still got cd to buy.. still got laptop in mind.. still got......

jus tot of someting to share.. it may be true..

Laws are created to have some other purposes, in the guise of maintaining order...

-it'S for the poor n naive to follow whole heartedly.

-for the outskpoken peeps (usually the poli leaders) to bite and argue it out

-for the rich to bend ard it.. n get richer..

eventually, the law just protects the rich!

tink recently my workplace is rather happening.. negatives ones.. n i do believe tat it's rocking the cohesivness n the trust between everyone.. it's very dangerous.. very very dangerous... to each individual there, n to the office.. i had been thru one major change last june.. n i guess this coming june, i'll have to face another, perhaps even bigger transformation. a disappearing act for 4-5 peeps in a span of 3 weeks..

all these are worsen by the head's sudden destructive behaviour.. think it's inflicting lots of damage to the already weaken hull.. sometimes, i wonder if i should have further weaken the hull, just by leaving the office n dun gif a hoot about it.. this is bcos, i've chosen to stay when i was given the chance to leave...

haizzzzzzzz, the road for the near future is already obscure, let alone the long road.. wat to do? walk n see step by step lor..in these days of uncertainty, haizz

just reached home after shopping high n low for a birthday card.. ya... somebody's celebrating her bdae in less than 2 daes time. those who are following my blog should noe who's there to make me so gun chong... heehee.. worth it lar.. i wld say, although many have felt otherwise..

many have told me, is it worth it, especially when there is abundance of it everywhr.. but, i believe in persistence.. especially after wat my fren told me. She said tat how ever stubborn she can get, she's still being touched by this guy, who pursued her for 5-6 yrs.. y cant this happen to me? still waitin for this dae wor..

but, i've got a worry... wat i think is tat, in this case, the gal is kinda "forced" to feel for the guy.. n such a thing cant last.. definitely.. "mian qiang shi mei you xing fu de".. however, i relly liked her.. wat to do leh? wait lor.. until i become BAI MEI... kekez

Guten Abend, danke fur lesen mich BLOG.. haiz... enuf of GERMAN..beri mah fan..

u peeps got to be wondering... how on earth did i came up wif my current theme (love the past, hate the present, yearn for the future)? well, it jus came to my mind while i was toking to my fren. and here i go explaining the meaning...

LOVE THE PAST: wat's in the memory are usually the pleasant, memorable ones.. who wld delibrately go and remember horrid things, unless u are uma thruman..

HATE D PRESENT: when it's good or precious time, we will always blame anything in the world for giving u such a short time.. when it's bad time, den it's bad lar! so, no matter wat, we'll hate the present

YEARN 4 D FUTURE: if u dun do so, y are u living, breathing precious Oxygen?

me seems to have a knack for all these furni furni quotes, they are original hor! (maybe i read not enuf)...

mama's dae over.. hoped all mamas are and will be happy in the future...

today moi literally slacked at home... no moives tat catch my attention.. slp in the afternoon.. feeling so awake now..

has vowed to stop betting, to stop wasting my $$.. but den.. i bought again.. haiz.z...how can i stop leh... the words have been on my mouth for a few mths.. but action nv seem to follow up.. jus like wat my fren had said (though it's in another context).. wat can u expect to happen, if u jus tok, wif no follow up actions...wat to do... COS TAT'S ME.. 4eva indecisve.. got to change moiself.. wat to start wif leh.. too many bad points liao..

anyway.. let me chk the score between seville and valencia....

currently moi in a cosy setting in ntu, using the i-net acc of my fren.. how did i do it.. dun tell u leh..

4 the last few mths, was in quite a dilemma.. whether to remain in Science course in NUS, or to switch to envr engr in NUS or NTU. has tried applying for nus one in 2003, but fail to get a place. the course seems interesting to me...

haiz... actually i've got no plans in my mind wat to do for my future.. so far, my life have been rather smooth-sailing, not too rough. all the course choices i had in my JC are very standard ones.. those boring science classes.. now tat this next step tat i take might have a serious impact, definitely i've got to consider as much factors as possible.. 1 wrong step and i'm gone. I've seen lots of life examples to the wrong steppers..thou mus not follow them n fall...

most peeps select their course by shortlisting wat they wan, and den rank them in order.. but for me, it's eliminate wat i dislike, den rank those that remain.. well, i really dun noe wat i wan. neither do i really noe about the course i'm taking. how wld u expect the infant to noe wat's the world like when it's in the mommy's womb?

haiz.. giant step, indecisive mind.. think will still try to have env engr.. heeehee. try to apply in 2005 for.. anyway, i only ord by then.. but to choose ntu or nus leh? nus, i've tried in 03, but cant get a place. ntu leh.. she's there.. n i worry tat i cant really concentrate there.. even though it's a beautiful campus..engr fac is so near acc...

going off liao, will be forced log out soon...real soon..

whew.. finally can get a breather.. been busy the last few days.. now is like the big thing about to be over.. hahahaa.. but still got the next bigger thing.. haiz..

recently trying to help an O level candidate in NOV to study for her mid-yr.. den i realise someting.. hey, i seem to have forgotten lots of my stuff.. things tat were once at my fingertips.. omg.. is NS really so disrupting to my studies? or has the current batch of teachers failed to realise the art of teaching.. making this batch of students to suffer from the backlash.. creating students who only can absorb and learn everything from a script, a manual? well, tat'S for u to think...

gettiing tired.. got to slp liao.. wonder if u realised this.. i often write my blog at wee hours....nv realise tat rite?? well, tat's me.. an observant me..

whew.. finally can some fresh air.. been fighting fire for the last few days.. finally can slack a little now..

think the toggler is getting stupidier.. i'm completing it in 4 moves.. ya.. no typo, nor tyco. 4 moves.. heehee.. will be scouting for other games.. tsk tsk..

changes to moi blog quite a lot.. think the loading speed it getting slower n slower.. heeeee.. just hoped that users can get something out of here.. anyway, from the style of my blog.. from the layout, from the approach i take, guess u ppl can realise sometiing about me bah...

care to share?? tag it!!

alrite.. got 2 slp liao...

tried a test @ this link

This is intepretation of moi:
1. You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is moods-swing, blow hot and cold in love, vacillate.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal, faithful, never change.

4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is one that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship that you can grow with.

6. You can never be stabilized; actually, you are not suitable for marriage and you don't want to make committment.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties.

well... in JC.. was in SA for the 1st 3 mths.. kinda fun... especially wif tom... i mean.. Ms TOM.. her full name is teo oi mei... but loved to call her tom.. hahaha.. think she's quite fun to be wif bah. she's cute too(maybe it's bcos of her bits-of-blurness look and quite fun to tok wif).. i think lar.. unfortunately, my O levels not so good, so couldnt stay in SA..

well.. in JJ.. time spent here is rather un4gettable bah.. found close frens.. n more imptly, found a gal i liked back den.. and i still like now.. heehee.. my rank in her perspective(i think lar) is frm stranger, to classmate, den to fren, to maybe close fren, den to classmate and now... bits of stranger.. haiz..nvm...

just went to SAJC site to look for Ms TOM.. n to my horror.. she's e hod of maths now.. OMG!! high flyer... she's so young...

n today.. me is a NSF clerk...

sianz, slacking the whole dae..thou shall now tok about moi sec sch daes.. generally, i'm a terror to teachers.. loved to ask questions... good ones, lousy ones.. boliao ones.. constructive ones.. think i also hyper last time, so got once being banned from leaving the chair.. as i was mischeivious, i walked ard with my butt to the chair.. whhahaa..

sec 1 -- joined NPCC.. dun noe y i joiin oso... was given a caning in class by my dm for an apparent act of fighting... till today, i'm still wondering y is my action at that time classified as fighting.. but nvm.. heh heh.. for tat, the then VP.. Mrs Fong Chu Meng remembered me even though she was posted out.. heehee she's a real nice person..

sec 2 -- a ever-persevering me asked for too much, in the end, provoked my fren.. who was rather lazy.. almost broke out into a fight.. luckily it was all covered up.. :P

sec 3 -- nothing much happened.. was shocked that i've got 3rd in the level position.. be it mid yr or end of the yr.. was it bcos i'm really smart, or maybe it's because of the complacency from the others.. nv been at such a good result since pri 3.. should be the latter case bah.. heehee

sec 4-- I was rite.. the top 3 last yr all flopped... our results dropped slightly.. but the rest did a lot betta... haiz... so last yr was jus a smoke screen.. anyway, dun noe y.. but think got one junior NP cadet fell in luv wif me.. should i be flattered.. i dun noe.. anyway, i kinda harshly rejected her.. she asked if i got gf.. and i lied to her... "yesh!" haha.. at tat moment, i tot it was real fun.. until today.. anyway, (hey, y got so many anyway..) when to chase after a gal same class as me after the O levels.. today, when i look back, think i did it out of mischief.. for the fun of it bah.. eventually "broke up" after 3 mths.. why i put inverted commas, bcos.. it seems tat not much of a feeling was involved.. maybe we were closer frens.. not to the stage of BGR..

HI, maybe it's time to tok about meself, for those who noe me halfway thru my life...sounds like some old man story, but do i care? humph..

Borned in Nov 84, had a rather weak physique when youung.. ended up wif asthma.. was playful and very bad... me kinda nasty.. beri nasty. remember lots of bad stuff i did when i was in primary sch (thk god no one find out)

Primary sch days --
.. in P2, think somehow i luv to steal. set up a grp of 3 ppl. Everytime recess when others go for meal, the grp of 3 will go diggin bags and take wat we think is worth taking. it all ended one day. the 3 of us agreed to do again on tat dae. once the bell rang, i 4got about the agreement and left for the toilet and den food. i totally 4got about the damn agreement. and den, the other 2 got caught, n thus disciplinary acitons. fortunately, they noe wat is "yi qi". n i escaped scot free... the loot... ususally pens, pencils, erasers, and lastly, lots of story books... (sorry clement, guessed u still cant account for ur lost books). This clement luvs to bring lots of books, whenever someone 4gets to bring one, he is the man! but since the case of the missing books, he no longer bring excess books...heh heh..

....p4 often played football... still remembers days whr $$ veri little. so we did lots of recyling. using used papers and newspapers, a ball was rolled out of it. den it's reinenforced by stickytapes.. and there u go... "football".. so often that i was not happy of the events on the field, i beat ppl on the back.. den got reprimanded by my form teacher... heehee.. luckily no further actions...

..den p4-5, stole icecreams from a provision shop near my house, den got the kick.. take quite often.. heheh... den one day, dun noe is it bcos no one buys, or i took too much, he stops selling icecreams .. haiz..

.. p5 was an un4gettable one. cos streaming.. so got new ppl.. student movements.. den got to see this real cute gal(she still is today).. she made me understand wat is "xiao lu luan chuang".. being able to get close to her gif me a sense of euphoria.. omg!! recently stilll got bitz of in contact wif her... as a fren only lar..

tat's all for Pri sch daes.. terror rite?