Now Listening: 古巨基 - 路边摊....

她, is an one-act monologue that uses shoes as an analogy for relationships. In the show, it protrays how 她 struggled to look for the pair of shoes that she loves the most, which magnifies LOVE in the current era. The highly educated new breed of human beings. Thruout the play, 她 is always in vain, looking for the pair of shoes tat she loves best. But, no matter how hard she tries, she always fails. As written in the synopsis,

没有鞋时的孤独和故作坚强;
选鞋时的矛盾彷徨;
穿鞋时的互相依赖和互相伤害..

I tink... the actress for this part of the play has acted in her role very well. In this monologue, it's all about her expressions, emotions, tones, speeches and actions. Well.. wat else can i say? quite a good actress, i stress again.

the next part is abt war and fighting.. it's consist of several extracts from the king from the Warring States Era to WWII Nazi Military Officer.. from the Little Red Riding Hood to the present idealogy conflict between U n Me. It is expressing the script-writer's exasperation @ the continuing of bloodshed and lost of lives despite lessons in the history books.

Though i took a long time to really understand this script, but i tink.. the thesis tat the scriptwriter is posing is this: Fights are began long long ago.. and it even appear in the kiddy books tat u and i have read. In the pursuit towards victory, wat are rules and regulations? Is there a real need to follow, which may hinder the progress of the fight? Or, ppl can do anything they want, so long tat they win?

Love isnt a decision, it's a feeling. if we could decide who we love, it would be much simpler, but much less magical.. - Herbert (Ethan F.) Garrison

been busy for the last few dae. although i was on leave for Mondae, but my schedule dun seemed like it.. Cos, I went to my old camp for medical review, den go lakeside for my driving lesson. Afterwhich, i head for PLC to stay-in. (Well, no leave on tuesdae)

As for tuesdae, spent 1 whole dae with Bingwei in SAFTI.. haa. y? cos of the damned workshp tat my camp is organising. n as usual, i was there for 10hrs. but effectively only worked for 2hrs. so sian. and fortunately, i've got bingwei to accompany me.. ahhaa.. i tink .. he will miss my presence too.. y? cos i always bring food to him.. heh heh. from biscuits to nuggets, and from fried vermecilli to porridge..getting fatter wor! :P

And wednesdae, i've got to burn my leave.. how sad. well, ok lar.. kinda willing. cant bear to see my boss slog.. the damned other snr officers are squeezing him until dry dry. @ the same time, i cant find anyone to replace me. so.. ok lor.. help him lor. well, he's quite a good boss lar.. can work, got welfare also. (although sometimes a bit screwed up, but not as bad as ET.. haha)

after tat, i went on with bingwei to watch a stageplay in NUS. Part of the Exxonmobil Concert.. titled 她/墓之铭.. wat is it abt leh? er.. i still trying to depict the real intent of the play lar.. so.. pls wait.. heh ... sorry jieqi, heh.. for the failure to really understand the majority of the essence in the play.. hahah :P

realise tat my blog hardly involves feelings? well.. it's coming soon... cos i find it kinda irrational and insensible to make noise abt the ppl ard me.. esp tat i'll still be seeing them.. and of cos.. some who do still read my blog.. but dun worry, will start blogging abt them.. after 050505 heh

I need to calm down... here's Enya's Anywhere Is

suay, sway, 衰, 倒霉, ill luck, hard cheese, rotten luck, tough luck, misfortune

tu-lan, 愤怒, 怒气冲天, beserk, pissed off, boiling, mad, annoyed, furious

tat is all i have to sae, on this day where my fren is having a wedding dinner tonite. GDI

On duty today.. sian.. just bcos tat damn botak inserted a person on longterm MC on duty.. and i've gotta do the duty.. shucks.. anyway, im il legally using the I-net PC.. lolx. sheesh.. all i did was.. key in "dutypass" .. n .. hahah. if only u noe wat i'm trying to do here

pretty uneventful. been slping in the afternoon.. actually i do feel tired now.. but, i'm bloated.. so.. how to slp?

Btw, tink i'll get employed next wednesdae.. now i'm waiting for the manager to call me for an interview.. it sounds promising to me.. anyway, if i dun get the job.. also nvm.. not tat i can get FMC, but actually, i dun have the necessary skills to perform the job required of me. Tink the manager quite desperate to get someone bah.. heehee.. quite lucrative too.. 5shifts a week, each shift 10hrs. will be paid $420 per week.. tat boils down to.. $8.40 per hr.. too good to be true? i also tot so.. but.. let's see lor.. go try try 1st..

yawnz.. so tired.. but i cant SLP!!! haiyo..

曲名：忘不了 歌手：施文斌

翻开一本旧日记 记载着一段旧恋情
每段都那么甜蜜 往事历历在这里
曾看过多少的风雨 曾说过要到哪里去
曾做过觉得傻的事 爱过在这城市里

*昨夜下了一场雨 让我忽然梦里见到你
躲在某个地方哭泣 好想紧紧抱着你
有一次从朋友口中听到你的消息
我的心都在发抖 你是否孤身一人 (我不停追问)

^分手两年后我还是想着你
多久没有见过你 现在你住在哪里
只怕有一天我们都会老去
只想留一点回忆 能够让我们依靠

我在一个咖啡店 透过玻璃窗往外望
你的人影无所不在 无心无魂的想你
*^
为什么人总要等到失去才珍惜
我来不及想告诉你 要永远不分离
^

Was feeling tat this 施文斌 seemed familiar.. no wonder.. he was the one who sang Hello Angel..quite prominent on FM933 n.. ahha.. too bad he cldnt get his song popular until now. his 1st album, BenC.. came out ard the time Ocean's album came out also.. and.. so sorry for 施文斌.. the Tsunami was so great tat... many were caught by surprise..

how sad.. for a new R&B singer to get popular 5mths after the release of tat album..李圣杰 is just another classic example.. 1st, his first album was nv known in SG. n.. his 2nd album.. SG only got to noe after mths since it's release.. pathetic..

n.. tat's y.. it's hard to make it big in the music industry....

Ok, finally i'm having a chance to mood.. which, sadly, coincides with my leave.. all my predecessors all started to mood mths b4 ORD.. guess i ming ku.. have to slog.. right to the day b4 i embark on the LEAVE JOURNEY. seriously, i tink.. when tat sickening goh comes in, every ord personnel have to slog to a certain extent.. n guess mine is the longest.. by far.. sianz... be careful.. larry.. u'll still have a long time with him.. heh heh

Now tat i'll be going on leave.. hmm.. how shld i spend my time? Work? can i find one tat's suitable for moi? I guess i'm too clerk-orientated.. love to be in office n slack le.. aahhah.. but.. who will wan a slacker? :P

hmm.. has planned my leave.. painfully.. like i've said.. ppl has asked me y do i have to plan leave plan until so cham... dunno leh.. n after painstakingly finished planning, and applied.. i realise tat i 4got to set 1 day for my clearance forms. omg..

anyway, the whole of april will be free!! anyone wan to find worker? $5 an hr?? any takers? ahah

Ok, it aint Calvin.. it's all the Botak Chris fault... allocating duty for a guy who's on long term MC. I'm going to thrash things out later.. god bless me..

Dunno y.. a lot of things hor, I must personally supervise, or do myself.. cannot delegate to ppl one.. If i do so, chances are, things will go wrong. Just a simple collection of 45 booklets can take 2working days.. wtf are the taxpayers' $ paid to those god damn WOs.

I tot my weekend will be a pleasant.. of cos.. with football session on Sat afternoon.. y not? but.... @ ard 8:20am.. i receive a call from office, asking me to report back for duty.. n my tot was... y me? FOCK!! Ok, I'm the standby duty guy. But, where's the original jerk? He was uncontactable thru out the Sat morning..

My instinct is telling me tat the original person is calvin khoo... CCB! the arsehole who always tries to get other ppl into trouble. Wat rotten luck for me to be colleagues with him, with the very same office n same boss.. N this time, again.. he pisses me off!! He didnt report the duty, he din bother to let me noe, or let the previous day duty guy noe..

I think, this is the last resort liao.. If he's the real original duty guy, i gonna let him get 1 X Jiat Lat Jiat Lat.. Let me think of all the charges tat can be put against him...
1) Failure to report for duty
2) Failure to remain contactable
3) Failure to inform anyone of his whereabouts
4) Failure to be in a place he is lawfully required to
He betta hope tat in the records, it is not his duty.. if not.. good luck to him! Such ppl does not deserve even my minimal respect, let alone trust..

N so.. my pleasant weekend is now filled with hatred.. tu lan.. pisses.. n.. U.. U will pay for it.. not just my monetary losses (of $8.66), as well as my time wasted.. the grieviance i've suffered..

toking abt grieviance.. basket.. i muz curse the DO too! He is just another unholy bastard. When i reach camp to perform duty.. i called him. 1st thing he asked.. "Y u so late..?" Well, n so i told him.. "Sir, I am the standby. The actual duty personel failed to report, and he was uncontactable. And thus the Botak Chrix decided to activate me..I was only informed @ 0830hrs, n thus so late." Guess wat the DO told me? "Ok, but i still dun understand y u were so late." I repeat the same thing over n over again. 5 times. n.. he still fail to understand. I wonder which part of my sentence he dun understand..

N thru out the duty, there were 2 occasions where he raised his volume @ me, seemingly indicating tat i do not noe my work. Fark U. Once, he asked me to call someone to get the number of strips that were used. (anyway, he even got the colours wrong.. nvm tat..) I took awhile to get the figure, cos there were a total of 70 thin strips to be counted.. n he remarked, "Y are u taking so long?".. After i got the figure, he was on the phone chatting. After he ended his call, the 1st thing he said.. " Aei Lim, u slping ar.. y haven give me the figure?" CCB! Damn the blacks.. DAmn the indians. Y u cannot count isit? U scared u cannot see ur own fingers in the dark ar?

I sincerely believe tat i must get something done. PLC is the fuckiest place i've even been too.. where the NSFs cant even be trusted.. B4 u noe it, u wld have oredi been backstabbed too.. Fark PLC, Fark HQ T

heh.. enuf of chinese.. er... fortunately, i cover back my losses for today.. thersak chaiman scored the last goal. whew.. but.. the final score was 5-1... 6GOALS!!! wah lao..

啊!!!!! 只不过半个小时, 比数已成 三比一.. SAF FC 领先.. 上半场还为结束, 全场一进了四粒球... 我的命运为何总是那么苦...... 嗨zzzzzz

嗨哟... 怎么那么倒霉？SAF FC vs Woodlands.. 我本想在总进球那儿投注六粒球...怎么知道我图押时不留神...结果把六粒球投给了曼联与富勒姆的那场球赛... 嗨哟...

到了此刻, SAF FC 已进了两粒球... 那场赛势只不过过了十分中...

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Facts n Myth about Nnadia Chan

Her name is spelled as Naadia Hey, it's Nnadia, ok?

She definitely knows a lot about body care, makeups, matching of her accessories (Hey gals out there.. learn, ok?

She is elegant! hahaa

She is single...

She is in her late 30s.. She is only 34!! Just tat she entered showbiz at a very young age..Doesnt mean tat she's old!

Lost a capsule of wisdom today.. yar, i went to the dentist to have one of my wisdom tooth removed.. n process.. was quite scary lar. haha.. of cos, it was painless.. the anesthesia was heavy enuf.. but.. the way the dentist worked on my tooth.. resembles those "freedom-fighters" in Iraq.. hha.. really!! I felt like i was one of the captives held hostage.. the dentist forced his way thru while he pulled out my tooth.. whew. fortunately, it's my tooth, not my head!

n of cos.. it was total numbness.. i cldnt feel a thing.. haa.. n right now, i feel some pain.. guess there's no need for me to take the Ponstan.. er.. someone hearing this? heh heh.. i can gif tat to u!

Hope my condition can heal fast.. so tat i can join my frens to soccer on Sat afternoon!! haah

告诉他我不爱她: 梁咏琪

有一颗眼泪 陪着我孤单
伤透的感情 无法变坚强
我失去勇气 只怪我自己
心跳声 幻想你在听

忘了他的好 忘了我爱他
就算一个人 也要过的好
明知失去了 再找不回来
还要用微笑去面对吗

告诉他 我不爱他
告诉他我不爱他 也不想他
就说我有情人 刚堕入情网
早以忘了以前所有的美好时光

告诉他我不爱他 也不想他
一点恨都没有 泪都己流光
他可以 (如果) 傻我可以比他变得更傻
告诉他我不爱他
从今天 只爱自己 不会再爱他

Due to popular demand.. I've decided to put the Gigi's song up for u peeps to dl it.. it's @ Angelfire just right click the link, and select "save target as".. but act fast.. cos i'm running out of bandwidth le.. good luck.. hope u peeps wont get to upset by the song.. cos i am affected by it.. :P

tml's thursday.. dun call me.. cos i wont be able to tok... well, i'm going to remove my bit of wisdom tml.. ha.. well, u peeps can still MSN me... which means, i'll be pretty free over the next 2 days!! yea!

finally, i'm slacking a bit .. for the past few daes.. er.. i thot i wld have been able to do tat mths ago!! haiz.. just as i tot i cld do my usual planning of leave n off, omg.. things coming up.. additional things! haiz..

my 4mths in PLC hasnt been really pleasant.. really. I wonder y is my fate so unfortunate.. whether in JC, or in NS.. hope things can turn for the better in my next phase.. Uni Life.. but even b4 it starts, i've got a problem.. Env Engr in NTU, or Science in NUS... haizz..

Praying for luck.. still..

Pretty "eventful" over the last 3-4daes..

Friday
I spent 10hrs in SAFTI, but i've only work for 2.5hrs effectively. how efficient is tat!! haha... anyway, i went back to PLC to do some stuff.. well, afterall, i'm the "duty clerk".. but fortunately, AO decided to let me go off ard 7pm, n tat's y i'm able to make it for GUoYi's Bdae party at SouthParkHaven II.. and over there.. i only ate 6slices of peach, n 6 pieces of strawberries.. ahhaa.. not tat i'm on diet.. but i dunno which food contains beef extract.. so.. haha.. took the fruits only.. and .. together with my ex-classmates, we formed the AC grp.. anti-christ! haahaa... no lar.. somehow, we are not used to be with those ppl, cos of the very fact tat they are a bunch of hyperactive kids.. really not used to it.. den.. the bdae guy Guoyi was confessing abt a gal who has made an impact in his life.. of cos.. not the bgr type le. den.. after thing, i asked him n wanted to chk whether his mobile n wallet contains her picture.. of cos, all this are smokescreen.. the real intention is to throw him in the pool!! haha.. later, we threw another guy into the pool also.. Y? cos, he just lives in the house down the road!haha...

Weekend
Went to Raymond's wedding, looked quite pathetic.. after all, it's on a tight budget.. haha no qualms.. n sundae? it's abt watching of SP and playing of WE8.. and was chatting a lot with a fren.. hmm.. seems tat she gotten a lot of my trust.. hhaa.. but.. this long long chat.. actually costed me $50. Y? cos i 4got to buy football.. and.. the thing i wanna buy came out!! haiyo..

n now.. today... in office.. haiz hiaz.. tata.. gtg for lunch..

omg.. a very very sad song... Gigi's 告诉他我不爱她... haha.. no special meaning though.. just find this song beri sad lor.. er.. just love this song..

anyway, yesterdae aint any better. my fren went for overseas trip, and i'll have to cover his jobs. but, it aint easy! 1st, i had to report to another camp to set up some stuff. n the ever-annoying PNL called me asking where i was. omg.. wtf man. nvm, then, the SON asked me to set up a new computer for a newly posted in chap. omg!! where am i going to dig out 1 PC for him?? anyway, i only noe how to perform simple computer tricks.. not like those pro programmers and hardware specialists. sian lor.. me now is can siam den siam. if not, kanna caught for not setting up the com, i'll be in deep shit.

den, i've got to combine lots of MS Office files together and convert them into PDF format. holy shit! and some part of the documents got a bit of a hicuup.. i end up slping @ 0130 in the morning. shucks.

the only good thing abt doing this is.. i can siam the seminar jobs.. omg.. tat is then the real shit, i must comment. everything's not done, everyones only concern abt the namelist.. of who's going, who's not. noone really think of the registration thingy. damn those old ppl.. who just noe how to count $. dunno how to think. they got their barcode scanners, laptops, n blah blah. but dun have the database to capture the attendance.. wat's the point? anyway, i managed to siam this shit. whew!

can someone teach me how to li cai ($ management)??? i'm using my future pay (meaning i got to return to my mum when my $ comes in on 10th) and i only got $210 left. i've got 2 bdae parties and 2 wedding dinners to go to in this very March!! haiyo.. headache.. stressed.

has beeen a pretty unlucky sunday for moi.. it all started with me losing $50 in MJ session.. haiz haiz.. after that.. i went to MSN just chat up with a few frens.. and one of the fren told me that the theme song's title of tat citigemz ad is Dreams by Cranberries. okko.. den i went to dl.. hmm i tot i was lucky.. hahha

when i was abt log off to report back to camp, a fren sent me a hyperlink, claiming that there are hot pics.. n the hyperlink is: http://www.mxt-networkz.com/parishilton.pif .. my senses told me that i read something abt this link, it carries a kind of virus.. but.. somehow, my finger itchy, n still go and click it.. omg.. and b4 i noe it, it automatically sends to everyone online.. i muz apologise to all who kanna this nonsense. anyway, i spent the next 1.5hr rectifying the situation. omg.. by the time i finish, it was oredi 11+pm. so i got my dad to drive my to camp.

the way to camp was quite exciting, at least for the beginning. he was crusing ard 130km/h on the AYE.. crazy right? aha.. den, we got bugged by this taxi driver. he seemed to be exiting from the AYE @ clementi exit. but somehow he keeps himself to lane 4 (he was near the decelerating lane, but he refuses to go into it).. my dad got pissed off, he filtered left, accelerated to 120km/h (er.. there was a speed camera earlier on, n thus the speed went slower) n high beam the taxi driver.. aaha.. shoik man! guess the taxi driver also a bit shock, cos my dad decelerated to 80 when he was on the road, and the taxi overtoook dad's car.. haahaa

shoik right? but not for long.. a while ago, he was "yaya" to me, saying that he noes how to get to PLC very fast, n there's a direct route from PIE which will land me in PLC very quickly.. so i let him drive lor.. guess where he drove me to? NTU.. and he mistook the hostels as my bunks in camp.. omg omg omg.. haha.. nvm.. cos i still ended up in PLC.. and the trouble is.. after i alight, as i was going to the backseat to get my stuff, he accelerated and drove away.. omg omg.. called him n he drove back.. whew. imagine if i left the back door open as he drove away.. hahaa

anyway, tat's not the end of my suay suay day. as i walked up.. i took a long time lor.. long long time.. as i was abt to reach my bunk, my fren call me, ask me to wait at the gate for another fren, cos he dun have enuf $ to take cab. nvm.. so i walked back. as i was abt to reach the gate, the fren called, telling me tat he has asked his fren to transfer $ to him, so i no need to pay for him le.. TMD.. all these... happen b4 0000hrs of Monday.

this is really crazy.. Go take a look.. open ur speakers.. dun worry.. not those horrifying sounds.. am i so boliao?

dunno wat's the problem with doodleboard. guess i'll stick back to TagBoard for the time being.. n no more Sissors paper stones, mind u.. u noe who u are

oh dear, wat's happening to my doodle board.. i cant even login on it's site,.,.

a few interesting observations.. 1)today's Fish Leong's concert in SG.but.. y Ch 8 is still broadcasting that advertisment tat the tix is still on sale @ Sistic.. there are stilll lots of vacant seats, or is it tat the organisers are worried tat the tix holders might 4get the event.. hmm.. we shall see..

another observ.. i just received the LETTER from NUS.. asking me to confirm my course slot. and they expect me to reply to them. they've enclosed an envelope for me to reply. n the problem is.. there's no stamp, nothing to show tat it's pre-paid. The letter itself has neither indicated tat it's prepaid, or i'll have to put a stamp. den wat's the purpose for NUS to gif me a envelope? rubbish siah.. i cant imagine wad's more to come.

oh. and now.. me.. suffering with pain! haaha.. just now i tried a break dance stunt at home.. DIY.. haa.. i used my hands to support my weight while my leg tries to go upwards.. n.. piang.. i overstretch my hands n i landed on my right shoulder..kekez. So i tot to myself n gave another shot.. this time i put my weight more towards my left... n.. shucks..too much... n i landed on my left shoulder n my top-left head.. ouch.. i can feel a bump on my face.. omgz!!

REMEMBER.. DUN TRY THESE AT HOME!! kekez..

after spending 2mths in PLC.. guess wad's the thing i believe i've acheive? i've given my bosses (tink it's more like fockes) lots of nicknames. i've got YAPYAP, PNL, AHDI, AH BENG, HANDSOME, ET, SON OF BITCH, THUNDERBOLT (Pi Li Huo), Ah Seng (Ah Chen)...

i tink.. it's flaming this id10tic PNL tat gives me the most sense of acheivement.. tink i've psycho-ed another person into the anti-PNL grp. really cant stand her. she just backstabs everyone, anyone.. even her good fren also kanna backstab. wad a shitty person she is.

just on tuesdae, she backstab a close fren, C. C was arguing with someone, whether clementi was part of the route to gombak. (ok, the fact is yesh... and in fact, it passes by the place C is intending to go). tat someone of cos said no, n dun wan ppl to lompang her despatch vehicle. C being unhappy, asked PNL for the fact.. and guess wad PNL told her.. "honestly, it is very out of the way..." OMG! please lor, it's clearly on the way.. dunno wat's gotten into her. n of cos, C got pissed off lor. helpless @ the same time too. haha.. and.. all i did was a little flaming.. and guess a mini cold war started. ok.. the PNL is a real evil. so.. actually, wad i did i just to wake those guillable ppl up. to let them noe the real img of PNL

n today, i just convinced another on PNL's sheep-clothing, while PNL is trying to get into the good books.... muahahaha.. i'm evil.. she's the ultimate evilness..

hey dudes... hahaa.. i only have 2mths left b4 i ORD.. well.. it's time to upgrade my equipments liao. kekekz.

tink i'll get this MP3 player.. Creative Muvo Micro N200.. it fulfils my 3S criteria: Slim, Sleek, Stylish.. here's a pix of it..

A 1GB cost ard $329.. muahaha.. tink i'll only require a 512MB @ $239..

i also wan to get a new pair of glasses..y no contact lens? haa.. i dun really take note of my hygiene.. so.. hha.. shldnt elaborate on it..

and.. of cos.. how cld i 4get this! a mobile phone. camara one.. with video recording function. haha... tink will get a samsung one.. haha! D500C.. yeaH!..

hmm.. is there any other equipment i shld get?? do advise me!!

but den again.. shucks.. tat means tat it's either i save $ all the way, or i strike toto.. haiz haiz. with 2 vodka absoluts, and 2 wed dinners coming up... and ceasation of mthly allowances, omgomgomg... haiz.. looks like i can only dream of them... for now..